20 October 2014

.weekend getaways.


Sometimes I wonder where I best fit but the more I travel the more I see the beauty in everywhere. I find fulfillment in all places. 

A weekend trip up north was like a huge series of deep breaths - the night sky exploding with stars reminding me how bright stars can shine, getting lost in the mountains during a torrential downpour, traveling on winding country roads, teaching everyone how apples are properly picked and everyone cooking in the kitchen to make the best Sunday morning brunch. So grateful for the opportunity to get out of the city, reconnect with the mountains, and reunite with old friends.

13 October 2014

.a conversation.




The further I drift away the more I find in it
or maybe the colors are simply changing.


Because what was - simply was
and what is - is.
The reality of then can never be relived because it is no longer my reality
but the way it affects and filters through me is
constantly changing - impacting.

Maybe I am still confused.
Maybe it ungrounded me more that I allowed myself to see.
Maybe this is just the process of growth
Maybe the journey is only just
beginning.


How do I want to change?
How will I regenerate myself?
How do I seek balance?

The never ending conversation.
The conversation of all conversations.

28 September 2014

.bianchi love.


Only a few short days until my bianchi and I are reunited!!!!!

22 September 2014

.happy equinox.

Happy Autumn Equinox to you all! A time of transitions - a reminder to focus on finding balance in it all.

photo credit sergio laboriel
"May we embrace all the devastation and pain, as well as all the magic and the goodness that inherently exists. For as we know, it is through our opposite reflection that we learn, recognize and appreciate. Let us meet in the recognition that we are all of it, and may we move with grace into the new."      -mysticmama
I am finding so much to learn from this equinox - as I am finally for the first time in 9 months settling into a new job - a new space - a new environment with more longevity. I have been sleeping on couches - traveling - searching - exploring - realigning myself to find this place. A place where the doors continue to open and I am finding much fulfillment. I am so grateful for it all. I am so grateful for the amazing timing. I am so grateful for the abundance of it all. An abundance that I continue to be amazed by on a daily basis. YET, I am a nomad so I find amongst all this joy and abundance - in the overwhelming calm settling in on the now, a slight discomfort inside. A yearning to keep moving - stay busy - focus outwards instead of unwinding from the unknown and anxiety of the past few months. This equinox is a beautiful reminder to sit down. To sit with myself. To say this is everything I need in this very moment. 

I went to a yoga class after work today for the first time in a long time and felt my body slowly start to let go of holding on so tight. It is such a long road. A beautiful road. A road I don't really know how to travel but I am beginning. I am embracing the transition on placing roots in one place while I still find ways to appreciate and foster the wild nomad spirit I hold inside. Both parts make me ME and both parts need to be nurture in order to find my balance.

One way I am going to foster that adventure is through the journey of others...Peter Gorman, a Cambridge resident is setting off on the 29th on a solo 10,000 mile bike journey around the US. I have so much bike envy! You can follow his journey here.

08 September 2014

.awareness.

Someone asked me about living abroad and so I began to tell them what is was like in the only way I could - the honest beautiful unsettling roller coaster of emotions. I watched their facial expression rise and fall riding the words of my telling. Then they asked a question seeking a definite answer for something that holds a sea of answers and layers of variables. 

I've seen that look of disappointment so many times after sharing these experiences. We want something that fits in a tiny box - and we are hoping that it is something beautiful and uplifting...but life isn't that flat simple or bland. Life is comprised of endless complex layers that make it so vibrant. Sometimes this ambiguity makes my head spin and other times it overwhelms me with gratitude to hold awareness of the layers I can experience and knowledge that there are so many I can't. 

I hope you feel it all - challenge what is seen with the eyes - awareness of all that can't been seen. 

It's a beautiful day.

04 September 2014

.i live here.


I moved to Boston two weeks ago. I love it.

A city that has come alive with the beginning of another academic year.
Encompassed by bodies of water.
Brimming with history.
Embraced with green spaces.
Bred with diversity.
It's beautiful here.