24 June 2016

.new relfections.

It amazes me how one moment can change/refresh/illuminate something and slightly change the reflection of everything else. The past few weeks I have felt a lot of movement in my life - a lot of new reflections. I balance my time between reacting and sitting back curiously observing, trying to understand my feelings and my expectations and release them both.

Yesterday the city cut down the huge old linden tree in front of our house to prepare for more construction this summer. They say Boston has two seasons, winter and construction. The intense sun and muggy afternoons are finally back so construction season is here. I left the house in the morning and came back in the evening to find no tree and a home that seemed unknown. The entire street felt different - empty - stark - poor. It's amazing the influence of one thing in an environment. It made me think off all that I surround myself with and absorb - the perspectives and energies.

What do I pick up?
What do I expose myself to?

I'm headed out to the cape this weekend and so excited for a long quite drive by myself and some nourishing beach time. I feel like I process so much on long drives. Growing up on the west coast - long drives are just apart of life. Living in Central Washington you drive to Seattle, everyone does. 3-hour drive up out of the valley and up over the winding mountains and down into Seattle. It always gave me time and space and solitude - climbing up the mountains - thinking. Living on the East Coast for almost 2 years now I really feel how space/environment influences/effects humans and our interactions. The density of the East and the vastness of the West.

It's beautiful how connected me all are to each other - the seasons - the earth - constant movement - the impermanence of it all.

22 June 2016

.AEO classics.

I've been busy in the studio learning about investment casting - practicing/obsessing over a new method of making. I can't stop. I'm totally hooked with a new method of making jewelry. I'm finishing up a new all cast collection of wares right now but in the meantime I decided to put up a few AEO classic wares in the shop because it's summer and that means it's time to accessorize with bangles and studs!!!

Check out the AEO wares in the shop now!

Happy Summer to you all!!

17 June 2016

.process of change.

Whenever change greets me there is a heaviness that sets in - a lethargy in my bones - a fear - a resistance. I'm desperately holding onto the shore line as the tide tries to pull me out into the newness. I exhaust myself holding - grabbing - slipping...until maybe I realize or finally deplete myself and I loosen my grip - swept out by the waves - carried into the newness.

There is a still fear but also that peace that come from surrender. That peace of acceptance. I realize it's fine - i'm fine - where i am suppose to be - lighter - open to what is to come.

How do you feel change? How do you decide to let go (surrender)? What do I  always choose fear when peace always finds me?

Change is here again. I rode my bike to find some peace - to take time to say THANK YOU. To say goodbye to what has been and I discovered this magical place.

But Pema always says it best,

"Letting there be room for not knowing is the most important thing of all. When there's a big disappointment, we don't know if that's the end of the story. It may be just the beginning of a great adventure. Life is like that. We don't know anything. We call something bad; we call it good. But really we just don't know."

~Pema Chödrön 

via prairie girl

15 June 2016

.all the feels.

This song just carried me away and I can't stop listening.


I never know how long it's going to take an idea to germinate and bloom. Sometimes it's a flash moment and other times it's months of feeling somethings coming...this collection, connection has been slow to marinate inside of me - a process of so many layers of art and daily life and questions and not knowing and ignoring and holding and distancing - art is the greatest mirror in my life, the greatest teacher. I think I started with an idea before I returned from Portugal and held onto it so tight when I returned - trying to not feel the discomfort in a familiar place - to try and connect with myself - loosing myself in he motion of making one shape over and over and over again loosing myself in the repeated steps and also finding myself in the mediation of the process. I have to commit to making active decisions - I have to root inside of myself and commit to something even if it's the smallest thing, I have to say yes - THIS. I have to connect with myself. I have to face my fears. I have to find out what makes me open and stay in that space. The collection is moving now - in it's own time in it's sweet awareness and truth that a collection always brings me. So grateful for the steady journey of my art.

01 June 2016

May the light of your soul guide you
by John O'Donohue

May the light of your soul guide you.
May the light of your soul bless the work
You do with the secret love and warmth of your heart.
May you see in what you do the beauty of your own soul.
May the sacredness of your work bring healing, light and renewal to those
Who work with you and to those who see and receive your work.
May your work never weary you.
May it release within you wellsprings of refreshment, inspiration and excitement.
May you be present in what you do.
May you never become lost in the bland absences.
May the day never burden you.
May dawn find you awake and alert, approaching your new day with dreams,
Possibilities and promises.
May evening find you gracious and fulfilled.
May you go into the night blessed, sheltered and protected.
May your soul calm, console and renew you.

As seen on CALM THINGS blog. I'm also inspired by her beautiful quotes and words.

30 May 2016

.the wave is coming.

I've been spending a lot of time being busy lately. I do this before a shift of change happens - I can feel it and instead of sitting and looking at it directly I start moving faster - doing more - connecting less. 

I met an artist at a wedding this weekend. We were taking the bus over to the wedding venue and she was sitting right behind me. She was such a beautiful thoughtful woman - she was so open to share about her art and journey with me, we just connected instantly. I was asking her what medium she usually works with and she started to share that she's always experimenting but lately having moved to live on a farm in the country she wasn't making as much and felt a change coming. I totally understood what she was saying and shared that I had quit my job a year ago to do my art almost full-time and was now feeling a shift coming in how I spent my time. I sometimes feels so privileged to share that I quit my job to make art and she was so quick to ask "but WHY do you feel that way? Because our society doesn't value art. We value people living lives that they have been told/conditioned to follow and we get stuck there because change is SCARY. Good for you for not listening to that!" It's those beautiful little moments that I know I am right where I am suppose to be and that I have to stay open because the Universe is always sending me messages that I need to hear to be reminded/encouraged along this path. I agreed with her that change IS scary that my go-to is usually to really follow my heart and then right as a shift is coming I get nervous and go back to working a job in public health where I can get consistent pay and benefits. I asked what her art was evolving into now and she said "I don't know. It just feels like something big but I don't know what it is yet." I totally agreed with her sharing that to me it feels like this big wave is building up inside of me what I don't know where it's going to take me too. She said "I use that wave analogy all the time for change." 

So grateful for all these moments of authenticity - moments of clarity - moments of connection.