The days are lengthening and Amado is growing into himself everyday yet we are still so physically connected. We're more settled, there's a rhythm emerging, sometimes. The days are warming up. The nighttime walks have transitioned into daytime swings out back, his fave way to fall asleep. the end of the newborn window is coming to an end. I'm in disbelief to say bye to this blur. I'm so excited to see him wake up to the world and also holding on so tight to these fleeting moments.
A friend asked "how's motherhood?" and I said I'll get back to you. My days have been so full of feeds, rocking, walking, bouncing, changing, bathing, googling, texting the midwife, feeding, trying to sleep with a baby on me, engaging, tummy time, story time, bath time, bedtime...it's so full, so unknown, so overwhelmingly beautiful. Sometimes I look at him asleep before I close my eyes and cry a few tears at his beauty, for the gift of being chosen, for his sweetness, for a life with Amado.
how's motherhood?
It's the most beautiful, profound, heart exploding experience of my life and I've had no time to process any of it but its the only thing that matters and everything before I saw his face feels like a dream or a past life. I only exist in this very moment. Someday all these beautiful parts/layers will come together - regroup - reemerge - but until then I'm right here holding you while you sleep, my greatest joy!
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