.what can I learn.

 

What can I learn?

Two weeks at home with an injury that challenges my independence, my clarity, my peace 

I find myself more anxious to think that maybe I’m exaggerating
to base my progress on some secret expectation
To allow my hours to be disconnected from my pained body with a running mind

How can one have radical autonomy?
Not that I don’t need anyone
Not to lose my belief that liberation is only through community and that we are all 100% interwoven

But how can I be so fully and firmly rooted in myself and the deeper earth, that I ask for what I need without apology
I can sit in the moment with peace, patience, and understanding 

or at least understanding that this moment arrived unannounced uninvited but it came 

and my job is to greet it and 

be curious
be kind
be gentle
- with myself

To not ask why but
what do you need?

Can I listen closer?

To be so radiantly autonomous that I receive the request to rest and just be
To be so radically autonomous that I receive the interruption as the journey
To be so radically autonomous that I receive the discomfort as a sign to listen closer and to care more
To be so radically autonomous that I receive life in a way that makes me more tender
To be so radically autonomous that I receive it as a pathway to connect more
not less